Sorry for the lack of updates recently.
Life has been crazy!
I’m looking at 3 months in prison, ill know for sure come sentencing on the 31st July. Its not looking great.
I’ve already lost my license, ive came to terms with that though.
My right side is also shafted, the doctors don’t know whats wrong, from my right kidney to my right toes, its numb, like constant pins and needles!
At first i assumed it was circulatory, like when i sit cross-legged (as i am right now) my leg goes dead on me after a time.
This is like the entire lower half of my body, and it ranges from unpleasant numbness to severe burning!
After some testing we concluded it wasn’t circulation, its not diabetes, may still be an infection (doubtful as its been a long time, so my immune system should have mopped up by now), and I’ve got an appointment to see a neurologist to check me for the very likely possibility that its a tumor pressing up against something in my head.
Doctor has told me to prepare myself for some bad news…
I’ll know more after a CAT and MRI. getting tired of “I’ll know more” situations.
All said its been a great few months, between getting jailed, facing prison, unemployment, no mobility, and now a high likeliness of a brain tumor, life’s been hectic!
For once id like to see some solid silver, instead of simply looking for the lining, but life it seems has other plans.
All my escapes have been severed, can’t climb on a bum leg, can’t run (the funny side is walking seems to make me look like your typical Scotland village drunkard) All I’ve been doing recently is seeing doctors, lawyers, judges and pharmaceutical induced sleeps, I’ve been on some crazy combinations of medications, and today i feel fairly lucid (I’ve skipped all meds for a few days, so the leg fire is in the post, but at least I’m lucid!)
Apparently my birthday has come and went, i missed it. My schedule has been wild, i pencil in important dates for appointments, drop my meds and lapse into unconsciousness for 19hr periods, wake up dazed and cant tell whats reality from dreamstate for a few hours, figure out what day it is, if ive got any appointments coming up, then drop out again till i need to move.
The impact this has had on my weight has been startling, to the point i struggle to do any pull ups on my fingerboard.
This is simply because i can go for 3 days at a time without eating, so my body has atrophied and converted itself into fat storage, ive gone from marathon fitness to being out of breath on a flight of stairs!
So that’s been my life in a nutshell, extreme drug addled boredom, punctuated by moments of extreme terror and panic.
Cant wait till August, cause at least by then I’ll know for sure wtf is going on, instead of just laying around thinking the worst.
Peace out! Im going to go draw some pixel art for a friends video game!
May as well be productive till the fire starts to rage on my leg :D
Sorry for the lack of updates recently.
Someone messaged me about F♯A♯∞ and i said id upload both versions and post them a link…
And because TUMBLR after replying the message dissapears so i have no idea who it was :D
Ping another message and ill forward the links once its upped to my dropbox
wow this firefly haitus is really taking a while isnt it
I’ve got a friend I’ve known for over 20 years, growing up his sister was and is the closest thing i have to a sister. She ranks among the few i would unquestionably walk barefoot through a mile of broken bottles to help.
She just spent the day in hospital after being raped.
This is pretty bad, worse still is i know the person alleged, It turns out its the best friend of my friends brother.
Worse still it all took place whilst she was sleeping next to her boyfriend!
The guy just crept in, and she woke up to find him on top of her whilst his wife is away on holiday…
Things are all kinds of fucked up, all the guy ever talks about is how much he loves his wife, he dotes on her to the point its kinda annoying, and he doesn’t seem the “type” but what the hell do i know? i don’t even know what the “type” would actually look like to be fair.
I cant see him being guilty, however that said, i cant see this being a thing anyone would lie about, least of all my friends sister…
And people wonder why i don’t touch drugs or enjoy being wasted in unfamiliar company, apparently even familiar company is dangerous to be wasted around!
I’m faced with the problem that one of my circle is a dirty fucking liar, and honestly? i have no way at this point to differentiate which one it is, i don’t want to think of either as such.
This year is setting up to be the worst year ever, and nothing i do seems to make a single iota of a difference.
Staring down the barrel at prison, poverty and now having no clue who the hell is trustworthy.
I don’t much want to live on this planet any more.
The US and the UK differ in one significant way, if you get shot in the US the perpetrator gets a free lawyer and the victim gets to pay for treatment.
Over here you need to pay lawyers, but at least there’s no risk of bleeding out on the side of the road whilst arguing over medical bills.
I bring this up merely because i found myself with a court date, Got a lawyer, There’s a thing called “legal aid” here, whereby if you meet specific criteria you essentially don’t have to pay for a lawyer, suffice to say, i was earning more than the threshold and didn’t qualify, no big deal.
What was a big deal was that there is a timelimit set on applying for the aid.
I would marry this man
guys we broke another post because this one’s not showing any notes
Rudy getting in on the pre-climb gear display ritual
omfg math jokes wHY
"Do not fuck with us"
Pastel Icebergs by Zaria Forman
Zaria Forman perfectly masters drawing with pastels. Recently, the artist reveals works representing icebergs. An impressive record, discovered in a series of beautiful images.
Always reblog. I thought it was paint, I’m 100000x more impressed knowing it’s pastels
Merry: confused awe
Frodo: confused awe
Sam: confused awe
Pippin: finally i’m getting the respect i deserve from these peasants
so accurate i am choking on my carrot. this is making me giggle harder than it should. I love Pippin so much.
I don’t think there will come time when I’m not reblogging this. Sorry guys.
my life in a gif set
The penguins omf!! “Dude. Dont walk like u own da place”